Allerliefste Pieter—Dearest Pieter

 

April 1, 2024

Dearest Pieter,

During Easter Mass, tears came to me when I saw you sitting there—how much longer? You get so out of breath from climbing stairs. It's frightening to think that you're slipping away like that. My Pieter, my rock and great help for the past year after accident. 

Because of the enormous pain, I was certainly not the nicest conversation partner! My humor appeared to have dried up and the pain was unbearable. You felt powerless... But you kept me alive by feeding me what you prepared. 

Suddenly, the roles reversed! It hurts so much to see your elderly sweetheart struggling and I couldn't change it. Praying, a lot of praying for strength and to be able to spend some more time together. Cycling together if I can still manage that... At least I want to take care of the laundry again. You're already doing too much outside! In bed you breath very difficult—frightening.

Both of us are still too often exhausted. Reading makes me calmer, but the pressure of many things causes stress. Glad we got the trust almost complete! Before it is too late, I want to tell you that I still love you dearly and that I am proud of you. I have emphasized that pride often enough in my blog! A rare great love and it hurts to have ended up in the rag basket like that. Neither of us wanted this! Someday we will be together again without physical discomfort—our souls. It's going to be hard to ever having to live without you...

I will fight for our cats, but I want to be with you again as soon as possible!

Your eternally loving L.L.

Our Final Easter Together

Pensive Pieter with his short hair cut

 

My pensive 94–year old sole caretaker with new, short haircut

 

June 7, 2023

Welcome home, my love!!

Pieter

Welcome Home my Love

May 12, 2023

Welcome Home!

My Love!

your Pieter

Our twins Spooky and Dido behind vase and on chair...

When big Sis Mary Louise came home with me from Savannah Memorial Hospital, Pieter sat in the front porch with Spooky—awaiting me home!

 

What Have You Come To Realize in 2022?

 

What Have You Come To Realize in 2022?

I realized I can trust myself. I've survived so much and I will survive whatever is coming next.

Mariette

Allerliefste Pieter—Dearest Pieter

Dublin, October 14, 2022

Dearest Pieter,

My rock–my intellectual–hardworking, down–to–earth 'better half'!

We first saw each other 53 years ago. An inexplicable sympathy that grew into a pure–real love.

More than that: a fusion of two souls.

With the same feelings and drive–never lazy or too tired to do anything.

Committing yourself to many and only thinking of yourself at the end... and that even reluctantly!

A deep faith and with the help of God's blessing has given us so many years.

Also, undoubtedly many souls of loved ones who have accompanied us on our path together.

You asked so little for yourself. Often even pro bono for so many.

We are convinced that God will one day settle it! Our behavior and that of those who scarred your heart. We can only pray and ask: Father, forgive them—they don't know what they are doing—just as Jesus said in all his sufferings.

You are still good to all the birds and animals on our estate. You feed and protect them. 

Even more intimate with our cats—they don't hang onto you so much for nothing. Animals feel how you really are and love you unconditionally. How proud I am of you—as I walk through the garden, where your hard work is visible everywhere. And no less in the house—what you've done yourself!!

There is no second Pieter.

Even the little oak clock that you recently managed to repair. And the silver clock! No, such an intelligent person, who still reads so much, is immortal—if it weren't for the body's inaction. 

Thank goodness we captured your intellect in our book in 2020—for others especially. I was also able to highlight some things about our life together. You like to read it on your iPadPro and enjoy it. Makes me feel good and especially because I know there was never time for it before. Always doing a mega job or often driving someone else around and proudly showing our new homeland.

All those memories will remain—that is my anchor when you leave me behind to receive the final reward for you soul. I know you'll still be with me until I get to follow too.

Thank you for so much real love and see you later!

LL

Silver Clock and Oak Wall Clock repaired by Pieter

 

Every Girl's Name Holds 6 Truths About Her

 

Every Girl's Name Holds 6 Truths About Her

Mariette

She has zero time for your drama.

She has a pure heart of gold.

She has always been an over thinker.

She never loses her sense of humor.

She misses someone very deeply.

She stands up for what she believes in.